I'm crap at this.

I suck at updates.
I guess no one reads so it doesn't matter.
I guess the last while has been tough.
Economically and personally.
I have to figure out how to pay for a holiday and buy stuff for my volunteer work. I dunno where the money is gonna come from at all but I guess something is gonna have to give.

Personally, I've had some stuff going on that no one wants going on.
My nan broke her hip 6 weeks ago and has since been put into isolation due to MRSA.
So that's pretty bad.
I think, worse than someone dying , is waiting for someone to die.
I love my nan, I really do. But she has suffered long enough and, if there is something or someone out there deciding our fate then maybe they should stop toying with her and give her a break.

I guess this is my issue with God and Religion.
I've been debating that a lot recently too.
With myself mostly.
Wanting to believe but just no being able to see how something like a higher power can exist with everything that is wrong with the planet.

I dunno. I think being sick and doped up isn't making me make sense.
Maybe another day.